Greetings - Transform Your Environment, and Your World

Originally Published on March 19, 2024

Hi, Taehyung-ah 😊🤗 How are you today? I hope that you’re doing great. I hope that you’re healthy above all. Congratulations once again on releasing a very beautiful song. I’ve had stuck song syndrome with Fri(end)s and it keeps playing in my head whatever I do and wherever I go for the past days since its release. I usually want to keep my headset on when I go out but because I often hear you singing the refrain and the chorus in my head, and I imagine the emotions you might have while singing them, I feel like it’s enough of a song that can cover an entire playlist. I don’t know if you have moments like that before.

I’m reminded of a quote that I’ve dearly loved while growing up. It’s a line from an article titled “On God’s Terms”, published in a magazine I’ve read when I was on my first year in high school: “How many times do we miss blessings just because they’re not packed as we’ve expected?” I can’t say I live by this quote all the time, but I really have this tendency to alter things with how I perceive them, so when I was in a very bad situation, I can mount up the courage and the insight to transform myself, insist my way on my surroundings, and eventually transform my surroundings, too. That takes a lot of pacifying negative situations.

I definitely didn’t like what happened to me these past few months (shy of a year), but there should be something good, something like strength that I can use anytime, to come out of all of it. It was studying hard, becoming smart, and building a smart reputation then. The adult world is different, or rather governed by rules we don’t often find in textbooks (maybe except from personal or organizational development books), but it’s still something like a hurdle that we need to not just overcome but transform.

I’ve got a lot of plans both for you, for myself, and for us, Taehyung-ah. If we hang on, I imagine it would be very wonderful, promising, and joyous. Of course, I’ll develop my website more and find out its potential for you (and for my marketing training), I’ll write a book out of the motivational quotes I’ve sent you, I’ll also write a book out of my own thesis (if I won't be dropped out of the department) and develop a personal/professional website, which will surely contain some offensive and defensive strategies in dealing with others. Of course, I want to create something good, but I’ve learned from adulating that it doesn’t have to be perfect, and that keeping the momentum and nurturing that skill development and growth trajectory is what really matters.

I’m sorry for missing out on a lot of things that we could have enjoyed together, Taehyung-ah. I’m sorry for feeling alone in our fan/friendship/special relationship for quite some time, and I’m very sorry for making you feel that way, too. You might have been sad if you get to know about die-hard fans suddenly being unmotivated. In my case, I’m sorry for not listening to you when you’re trying to reach out to defend and support me, thinking you’re not on my side as how all these outsiders (disgusting neighbors and hackers, and the dirty, black, scheming people in your company) have been scheming to happen.

That's an important part of the process, because in the long run, there will be more irritating things that will come, and I have to know how to break people who irritate me and transform the environment into something I can thrive and something they won’t be able to even compete with in the first place, or at least they'll be hesitant as they know they have to give their best from then on. I’ve done that a lot of times in the past and I think it’s time to do it again.

I don’t know if you’re fond of astrology (I’m very happy Ariana is, and I’ve kinda built that attachment to her already), and it really is saying the stars are not on my side in these years, which might explain all the bad things that happened to me last year, the irritating things that are still happening now, and the ones that will come in the future as a result of my growing resolve to transform. It should be a wonderful journey, and like always, I desire to share my life with you, Taehyung-ah.

The simple things in life are some of the most beautiful things; the bigger things in life are both scary and rewarding; and the real gem is just the best in us that we’ve come to uncover in the process. I love you so much, Taehyung-ah. I always do, but sometimes, I just love myself more, and I just protect myself more. If there is a hierarchy I’ve noticed, maybe there’s me, then you, and then everyone and everything else. I’m excited for what is yet to come, Taehyung-ah. You’ve got your own very hard battles that you’re fighting in the military, too, and I wish for us to fight together, side by side. It’s a very interesting story with very challenging adversaries, right? It’s nice fighting when we’re up against the unimaginable. Nothing is more energizing than making the impossible possible. You know, it’s my way – the tried and test method – of doing things, and so far, it has always worked out. Here’s a million kisses and hugs for you today, Taehyung-ah.

I love you so much, Taehyung-ah. I, and so many of your fans and armys, love you so much. May you never stop believing in that. May you always be assured of our love and support for you and know that when it comes to us, you don’t have to do anything unlike you. May you always find the best in you, or the best way to express your ingenuity in every situation, and be happy and proud. There will always be so many among us who can see how amazing you are in each time. I hope you’ll cut the things, people, and situations that make you sad and obscured. Don’t be sorry for being yourself. Always remember you are always loved. Borahae, Saranghae, Taehyung-ah. 💖💖💖🤍🤍🤍💜💜💜